Tuesday, 18 September 2018

LIFE UPDATE

Hi Everyone,



So its been a while since I wrote a blog post, ive been slightly more active on my youtube channel, but ive had a lot going on recently! My life has been turned upside down and im currently trying to turn it around.

So a few months ago now my girls dad left me, im not going to go too much into detail as its good to keep somethings private and I do share a lot! So along with that and being diagnosed with post natal depression ive had a hard few months, the break up was a complete surprise to me, I didn't see it coming, we were planning our wedding and looking forward to the future with our two gorgeous girls. Then sudd
enly I was left on my own to be a single mum. Im still coming to terms with what has happened, I still don't understand it, and it still dosnt feel real, I honestly never imagined I would be on my own as a mum, but it is what it is and ive just got to make the most out of a bad situation, and make sure my girls grow up knowing that there so loved by us both!

Its been really hard, but im getting to the point now where I feel like im getting somewhere, I just had my first counselling session, and im on medication to help with the depression. Now im just trying to figure out what to do with myself, how to be a single mum, how to co parent, what to do with my career, finding a house. Life has been crazy to say the least!

Its insane how quickly things can change in life, no matter how sure you are of something, in a split second it could change! But I know this ye
ar has taught me a lot, and its taught me how to be strong, how to carry on, and how to be independent.

I am very thankful to my family and friends who have been around recently and supported me! Without them I would have really struggled!

On a more positive note, im more sociable than ever, ive found out who Lydia is (as for a while I lost her) and ive realised that im one kick ass strong independent woman! And im more ambitious than ever! Im determined to create an amazing life for my kids regardless of any situation were in!

Please anyone out there if you are struggling, go and speak to your doctor, or local mental health team, a family member, a friend, literally anyone! It can be daunting opening up to someone, but things can turn around! I got to a point where I was so sick with my depression (before I had any help) that I literally felt insane, I could almost feel my head swirling around with all the thoughts, and ive managed to get better, so no matter how bad you might be feeling, people can help, and you can get better!

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